Realizations

I've realized that pregnancy, more than it being very physically demanding is a very emotional experience. One minute you are happy, the next minute you are close to tears or overly worried. I've realized this makes you either believe in the power of Science or the power of God or both, which was the case for me. Pregnancy made me call out to God and for all the Divine interventions I believed in. I've realized that what they say is true, it is a passage to a more responsible you... as you wait for your child to come out.

I've realized that I have a new found respect for mothers especially those that went through vaginal births, it is NOT easy. And as people has told me, it will all be worth it.. which is what I am feeling now. All the pain, the sweat and tears, and medical people over you, exposure of private parts will all vanish as soon as you see your baby. 

I've realized that I am very lucky to have Ken as a partner. He is an overly protective dad to Ira, quick to come to her when she stirs or makes a sound. Seeing how he is around our little baby girls makes me emotional at times, the love he has overwhelms me. It made me realize that Ira and I will be loss without him.

I've realized that I am falling more in love with Ira each day. I  build dreams each day. I fear for the loss of dreams that I have build every minute and because of this is very careful of the fragility of it.

I've realized that despite the pains and aches that I am feeling right now, I am happy.

Despite the fears and uncertainty for my little girl, I am certain and secure.

Despite all the negative thoughts, I remain positive. I should remain positive.

September 21 is the day that marks my life - the date when my little girl came out. The date when Ken and I became parents. The date when all these realizations have set in.

All these realizations will never be forgotten.