Pain in the Ass..literally

A few weeks from now, I am expected to deliver my first child.. Andreana Ira.  I have mixed emotions - happiness, elation, the i-am-not-ready-yet-theres-so-many-things-to-do-still, and of course the..I-am-scared-our money-is-not-enough anxiety because of the possibility of medical expenses piling up. One thing is certain for sure, I can't wait for pregnancy to end, not only because I am excited to finally see our baby but because of the physical restrictions I am feeling right now.


I did not know that pregnancy will be this difficult, it's literally a pain in the ass! I can't sit too long nor can't stand too long... as it hurts my butt! I am so hungry but can not eat much and I can not wait for the dexterity issues I have in my hands get better! Oh well and the acid reflux..a killer. They say...it is all worth it...I believe them who say it.


The 3d picture alone make me want to talk to her, the little me that I have been carrying in my womb for the past 8 months. The movements, all the kicking and squirming and waves I feel within me make me want to hold her hand and play with her.. and makes me wonder what's running in her mind.
Lastly, I can not wait to see Ken shower our daughter with love. Every time he will talk to our baby in my womb, I feel warm tears welling....I have to hold it back. Everything that he does, to make pregnancy easier for me, also make me emotional. When I get up at the wee hours of the morning to empty my bladder.. he wakes up and makes sure that I do it safely. He holds my hand when we walk to make sure that every step I take is safe for both the baby and I. The water that I drink, he ensures is clean. When I lie in bed to sleep, Ken ensures that I am all tucked, tummy and feet covered, so I won't feel cold. When he massages my hand and feet so blood will circulate when I extend it to him. His effort to cook even if he doesn't know how to, so I get proper nutrition. He wipes the sweat off my back and puts baby powder on it making me feel like a little girl. He does this because he things sweat that has dried out will make me sick. Everything! I want to document everything here so Ira will see the love that I felt from her dad while I was pregnant with her and capture it for all eternity.


Sure, I say that pregnancy is a pain in the ass.. physically only. I am lucky that I have a partner who shares it with me and makes it easy.