Ken and I had a rough patch earlier. This was the first in many months.
We had arguments and disagreements in the past but never been this explosive since before I got pregnant.
I realized that part of making things easier for me as I was going through my pregnancy is avoiding having rows with me - which I appreciate, looking back.
Our episode earlier of course as usual is a verbal clash with me crying while fighting back. It was unfortunate to think that this is Ira's first experience of parental clash - too early, too soon.
As always, Ken, na napakabait, reached out to me first and made peace by buying me food and by starting to talk to me and bringing Ira to me. I was ready for cold war...thinking about how I was make me so much feel like a bad bad bad person!
I know there will be so much more of these rough patches to encounter so documenting this will help make me realize how lucky I am to have a partner like Ken, who in trying times is always first to bring the two of us together and be one again.
More will come, especially that we are just starting getting used to the new family life, without getting any help from family or anyone. I pray that we will come out of this strong. Lord help Ken and I, make us strong right now that we are tired and confused, be with us, so that we can raise our Ira well, I ask for the intercession of Mama Mary and pray through your son Jesus Christ our Lord Amen.
Sabado, Oktubre 15, 2011
Sabado, Oktubre 1, 2011
Hungry Bird
Ira is growing up real fast. She is now what we call a hungry bird.. she can down 90 ML of formula milk in one drinking before she stops showing signs that she still wants more.
I am thankful that I am able to express milk now, even if it's only 1 ML that I am able to give Ira for every time I would spend 1 hour expressing, I am happy. I know the benefits of breastmilk and I am glad that I am able to share the gift of breast milk to her.
Ken is as tired as ever. I feel tired too. I don't know what to do sometimes that I think I want to sleep but I can't because we need to keep an eye on the baby and balance it with the chores. We really need to get household help, if not to watch the baby then atleast take care of the laundry, cleaning the house and cooking for us. For now, I am just proud of Ken and I because we are able to survive, shows the team work that we have is just phenomenal!
I am learning motherhood a day at a time, been reading blogs and web pages regarding babies... so I won't have to go through the panic that I felt when she spit milk and choked a little and her lips turned bluish. I almost died worrying! Good thing Ken is a pillar, came rushing back home to check on us. I realized that this happened every so often and now I know what to do if and when it happens again.
Though I have read on line that there is nothing wrong if you make your baby fall asleep in your arms the whole time everyone tells it not recommended because the baby gets used to it..I think Ira has fallen into that pattern. I liked it though, it makes us bond. I know one day I will no longer be able to hold my little girl that way so I would do it for as long as I can.
I am thankful that I am able to express milk now, even if it's only 1 ML that I am able to give Ira for every time I would spend 1 hour expressing, I am happy. I know the benefits of breastmilk and I am glad that I am able to share the gift of breast milk to her.
Ken is as tired as ever. I feel tired too. I don't know what to do sometimes that I think I want to sleep but I can't because we need to keep an eye on the baby and balance it with the chores. We really need to get household help, if not to watch the baby then atleast take care of the laundry, cleaning the house and cooking for us. For now, I am just proud of Ken and I because we are able to survive, shows the team work that we have is just phenomenal!
I am learning motherhood a day at a time, been reading blogs and web pages regarding babies... so I won't have to go through the panic that I felt when she spit milk and choked a little and her lips turned bluish. I almost died worrying! Good thing Ken is a pillar, came rushing back home to check on us. I realized that this happened every so often and now I know what to do if and when it happens again.
Though I have read on line that there is nothing wrong if you make your baby fall asleep in your arms the whole time everyone tells it not recommended because the baby gets used to it..I think Ira has fallen into that pattern. I liked it though, it makes us bond. I know one day I will no longer be able to hold my little girl that way so I would do it for as long as I can.
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